Tonight has been a difficult night for me. We took the oldest son to Nashville and dropped him off at the hotel that he has to stay at before he goes to the MEPS one last time. Tomorrow he goes to fill out the last of the paperwork, swear in one last time then he boards the plane for Great Lakes, Ill. for 8 weeks of Naval Basic Training. Part of me is so proud of him I could burst but the Mommy in me (you know the one, she still sees her children as the 3 and 6 year olds they once were) is crying nonstop. I have spells where I have broke down and cried for 2 or 3 minutes then I manage to pull myself back together for a short time then I will see something of his or just think of him and I start crying again (like right now.). I had to cry on the youngest for a few minutes earlier. I told him that I was gonna be a basket case when he leaves.
For as much as they can get on your nerves you love them with all of your heart. You want to see them succeed in everything they do but you still want to hold them close and protect them as though they were still that little infant cradled in your arms so many years ago. And yeah, sure, six months ago I was ready to bounce him out on his ear. But deep down I really didn't want him to leave then. And I also know that in 8 weeks I will be there watching him graduate from Basic and might even get to bring him home for awhile. But right now that seems like it is so far away.
I wish you sweet dreams tonight Bugger Bear. You know I love you with all of my heart.
No comments:
Post a Comment
Note: Only a member of this blog may post a comment.